Glad

The feeling you get everytime you're upset,thinking that nothing else matters in the world,wanting it all to just end with the blink of an eye,wishing for the bad things to disappear into thin air and at the end of the tunnel you see a light.The 'light' in which I mentioned is a person.Someone who knows you,knows your pain, understand you pain,helps you to get over your agony,and for some cases,shares the same dream,the same goal.No doubt I have friends just like any other human being out there.But it might just be a face,you know? You know the saying,"Friends are the family you choose"?It is definitely going into my list of principles. What is so important about blood?It is a bond,such that is it so weak and frail that one is able to perceive and see it with one's own eyes.Concern and care on the other hand,is what it is really all about, something that cannot be seen,only felt through sincerity.I once made the mistake of thinking (A) was perfect, was what i always wanted to be,and was my mentor,my guider.And (B) was nothing but a annoyance in my life,and he was the inheritor of an unfortunate gene,at least he thinks so?But now,I honestly don't know what happen to both of them.It's almost like they've switched places,or maybe I've changed.

(A) is self-righteous,prideful,never admitting to the truth,(B) is selfish,truthful,vulgarish.But you know what?At least (B) was always honest,ALWAYS.He's been through almost everything I have,he sees the the world as I do,he understand what is a family,what it takes to have one.We always questions ourselves,why are we here? Are we the wrong ones because we're different?If we are,they we'll leave,but why are we getting shackled? Why are we suppose to do what we should do,what does that mean anyway?You wanna know the truth in life,we are not suppose to do anything.We do want we want to do,not suppose to do.Do you,love someone because you-are-suppose-to?I don't know about that,but to me that is definitely not love.All I'm saying is,I'm really glad someone still sees the world the way I do.You know how it sucks to be alone,nobody knowing or even understanding what the hell are you thinking about.Maybe this is what you'd called a family. He doesn't care about respect or whatever shit,so basically he's more like a friend,and I respect that,I really do.I definitely want him to still exist in the future,definitely.Of course there are others,but one person per entry.And I'm glad.Till next time.

Ignorance

You know the saying,"ignorance is bliss"?Whoever made it is a genius but clearly has a lot on his plate if you know what I mean.Think of it this way,instead of thinking that it is disrespectful,think of it as an escape route for the one you're ignoring.I used to be able to ignore almost anything annoying people throw at me,but now, sigh.I guess it's true that nothing lasts forever huh?Imagine you're a game character.If somebody attacks you,you retaliate,correct?So basically it's a reponsive situation.But what if you dont respond,you keep getting damaged yourself with putting up a fight?I doubt anyone has such tolerance nor ignorance to keep it up for a long time.

And the thing is,why should we do so?To maintain the 'peace'?If so,why should we be the ones pretending everything is okay?While the other person do as they like however they like.Isn't this such a dishonest and unhealthy relationship?Trying to be someone else's idea of perfect is definitely not something you'd wanna keep in your life.And truth is,by ignoring we're actually giving mercy.Because if you didn't,I'd bet you'd feel unpleasent,and have the urge to shove anger into the person's face.However,as of now,I'm trying my best to tolerate,to ignore because I...we all have our promises right?Unfortunately,if my wall of ignorance is constantly being scratched,I've a feeling something bad is gonna happen.
Till next time.

Decisions

Let's face it.Most decisions we make that are against our will are often the ones that we don't keep.Say,you decided to change your lifestyle as it is to unhealthy?Or,stop slacking around with a bag of potato chips and start doing something productive.Unless there is an actual goal,or a influential motivation,people tend to just let it slide,you know,because it is not such a big deal.But it hit me,that if we can't even adapt to these little changes that we ourselves decided for the sake of ourselves,it's obvious we definitely won't be able to take in a huge decision,right?And if we're not able to keep that promise,that decision we've made,why bother publicly announcing it?Don't say "it's just something I said",if that's the case,although you never lied to anyone,you've been actually lying to yourself the entire time.

Since I was extremely young,I made a decision myself.What's odd is that,it wasn't just an immature decision, I'm actually still holding on to it.In fact,that decision grew,more hatred,more eager.Truth is,I thought it was just a temper tantrum that I released.It was actually far more than that.Maybe it's,because people never really do change.If you ever did see someone who's completely changed,maybe it's because you been confused with 'change' and their 'true self'.In my opinion,there is always someone out there in life,who you'll keep forever because that person is the one who has brought out the 'real you' or has unlock the lock within you. Sometimes,because of the decisions we make,we end up doing the wrong things.But,what is the true meaning of wrong?Doing something immoral?Or doing something against your will,something the exact opposite of what you truely want to do and lying to yourself in the process.There has always been a question in life that everyone has to answer themselves.Peace or freedom?But more on that some other time.

I have made a decision to do better in life.But,to do that,I really need to toss away a part of myself.Actually it isn't really a 'part' of me,more like something that has been forced on to me.I honestly never once picked this for myself.And if I keep caring about people's sake,people who I,sincerely have no problem with not caring about them at all,I will be sacrificing my own happiness.Why do I need to pity a person who,is very upset with life,because of the choices made BY that person itself.If anything,I shouldn't be to one doing the comforting,I should be the one being comforted.I'm honestly doing my best,trying ever way to make this, 'situation' better.But if this goes on,maybe I am destined to listen to my own decision afterall.For your sake, let's hope it doesn't happen.Seriously.

 

Choosing a career
Getting married
Starting a family
you did all this while you had your head up your ass
you did all this without making a decision
you did all this with pride and lust
you did all this thinking it's just a game
and you never once apologised

Those are several decisions in life
But the big decisions are the only ones that you have to make
It definitely will be the toughest
Because nobody can help you
After all long soul searching
I myself decided to take a big step
I've decided to .. on the ..
Till next time.

Perspective

For years,we all struggle in search of happiness,we yearn for the justice we want to be delivered. However, does absolute justice or true happiness really exists?Lets say,recently the police department manage to arrest a famous serial killer.Then,the court decided to take the word of a prosecutor and sentence that criminal to a death sentence.Yes,we can all tell ourselves that this is the greater good,that those who are evil should be punished.But really,that action alone is no different from plain murder.Maybe a little different,as the 'good guys' can kill officially as they have to the license to.On and on,I keep hearing people say that God loves us all.Then,isn't that death sentence defying God Himself in a way?Everybody tend to focus more on the fact that the killer only kill others when the truth is,his parents were killed when he was younger,and the police concluded it as an 'accident'.Is it really his fault to want revenge?It is really that easy to forgive people?It's obviously killing others is wrong.But why do people not emphatise with the killer's situation?All he wanted was justice served to his parent's murderer.Sure,we can all 'persuade' him to forgive and forget,but the truth is,none of us has the right to,because we will never know his pain,his devastation.People are so self-righteous. There is no such thing as true justice.I'm not being mean,just realistic.The word 'justice' changes it's shape depending on where you stand.So really,there is no good or bad,just,majority and minority.

True happiness.Not only does it mean happiness for,say,a couple?a family?Or even friendship.It means happiness for everything around them,the entire society,the entire environment.How certain are you that by being happy,you can guarantee 100% that you won't cause any birth of negative emotions aiming towards you.Lets say,you won a racing competition.Yeah,you're crying tears of joy,you're so happy.But to the ones who lost,you don't see them jumping around for joy.And you can't just say "It's their problem".Because they are really feeling upset at the moment.Okay,another example.You have an enjoyable life.You found your soulmate,you got married,you sincerely love your family,and your family feels the same way.Lets just say you're having the time of your life.And then,somebody less fortunate,say,a beggar.He notices how happy you are,how lucky you are.It's obvious he gets jealous,he gets upset because of the intensity of unfairness.And that jealousy,in time,bares hatred.So it's like this,love bares happiness,happiness bares jealousy,jealousy bares hate.Yeah,it is a vicious chain of reaction.And it's pretty obvious how humans are easily damages and how flawed they are.And sometimes,you see a bunch of gangsters.Thinking,how unfortunate they are,to live in such a way.True happiness,or the feeling 'happy' is when you yourself feel happy or at least think you're happy.If you sacrifice your happiness for the sake of other's happiness,that is most definitely not true happiness.So if a person tried to please everybody for their entire life,i wouldn't call it kind nor honourable.Maybe I have a twisted sense of logic but I think that's arrogance.The truth is,even God cannot satisfy every human.Some hate Him because God cannot grants everybody's wishes.And if God can't,and that 'kind' person thinks he can, don't you think,he thinks he can do better than God?Well,it's just a theory anyway.Me?Well I have no care for others at all.Call me evil,call me mean.But to my loved ones,I'll do my best to be somebody they'll lean. Everyone has their own journey,nobody'll be able to achieve 0 enemies in their life.Just do whatever it takes to achieve your own happiness.Nobody will give it to you.YOU have to Take It.So really,it's how you tend to look at things that define your judgement.Everything is not how it is,it is how you believe it is.

Sorry for the LONG wait.You know who you are.Till next time.

Dilemma

Black or white?Up or down?Left or right?Yes or no?Do or don't?Dilemma happens when one faces two seperate roads on their paths.All you see is a path which leads you somewhere you can't see,can't expect to happen.And the worst part is,we won't be able to turn back from that route.And sometimes,the choices we make always seem to be either the worse or the worst.But isn't that just us human being paranoid?I mean,if you want happiness,don't you have to sacrifice something or pay a certain price to attain it?Happiness doesn't just drop from the sky and lands right in front of you,you know.Everybody has to earn it,with their own bare hands filled with sweat and blood.

Say for instance,you're stressed out from a dilemma.What do you do?Pick the path that hurts nobody,keeping a secret from others and continue living your life with the thought that someday somebody might find out you knew the secret all along and therefore you were lying the entire time.Or choosing the alternative, the path that hurts a lot,because of telling the truth but it's because you love them that you told the absolute truth,I guess you could call it a long-term investment.All I'm trying to say is,anyone who has dilemmas and feels the need to interact with another because he or she might feel better when it is expressed, (depending on the individual of course,some might not feel better) they should do so,if it truely does make them feel better or think straight.If you're forced to carry this burden on your own,there is always a choice,yes or no,the brain or the heart,listen to either of it.For some,the heart's decision always seem to be the better one,for others,the brain's decision is the better one.It all depends on your own personal experience with dilemmas,whatever past mistakes you made, was it the brain or the heart?So use the opposite,I'd think that it helps. Fyi,I'm not having a dilemma though.Got inspired by a movie I just watched.

Also,if one really did chose the wrong path
There really is no such thing as turning back
However,one can always walk off the path
You know,walk off the chessboard
and fix whatever shit that you've done
It's life,not a chess game
We can do whatever we want
Whenever we want
However we want
With whoever we choose
Till next time.

Sorry?

Sorry seems to be the hardest word?Maybe it isn't hard to say as a word.Watch this, sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry, sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry,sorry.See what I mean? Maybe it's because it's hard to be sorry for something you did or didn't do.Why would you feel sorry for something that means so much,so important?Or even something that you'd never regret?But why is it that we often hear the word?Reflex?Or because it's the protocol?Even I sometimes say "sorry" for no actual reason. After that,I'd look back and discover that I don't even feel sorry at all,not even a little bit.Am I just originally evil deep down?Or should I just fake a feeling,and lie to myself forever,would that be a better alternative?

Sometimes,because of lying(not telling the truth) we may often upset most people.But,how is it that even the truth may cause hurtful feelings?Maybe we should sometimes hide the ugly truth.Normally I'd just give a straight out answer coated with 100% of the truth.But,for others' sake,we'd lie,to keep that smile on their face.Thing is,we can't bare to lie to him(common term,may be a him/her/God/whatever).But after the truth comes out,both parties got hurt.And to avoid further upset-ness,both parties recuperate themselves instead of using the usual method,helping each other.See what I meant,the truth is never pretty.But we or,I know that whatever I do,has consequences.I am always prepared to face it.Unless it's an accident,then I'll never be sorry.And truth is,I'm not sorry at all.Hate me,love me,dislike me,like me,proud of me,disappointed in me, anything,I won't regret it.Because I've always been doing what I wanted to do.And I'd kill myself before stupidly backing down on something so important.Maybe we shouldn't be related or shouldn't have known each other,maybe then it'll cause us less pain.But I'll bare it,I'll bare the 1000kg of pain because I'd never regret it,keeping that frown away.So please don't say otherwise.I'm just hoping it's not just me though.No,I'm not being emotional.Remember,it's just an opinion.Till next time.

Individuals

People,human,mankind,men,women,children,senior citizens,crazy people. Despite whatever looks they have,whatever their appearance may be,whatever the skin of their colour,whatever size they are,whatever age they may be and whatever job they have,each of us are still an individual.We are who we are,doesn't matter if we're stupid or useless because in the end nobody can be better than you in being you.That's why you're,you!Individualism is a term where one prefers to be alone,prefers to do things alone.No,it ain't anti-social.He can choose to socialise whenever he wants to with whoever he wants  to.It's called the power of choosing.Although people say it's tougher do things in a big group with extraordinary teamwork,truth is,people crave the existence of other people.So really,instead of being so codependant,being a little more independant is less bothersome.

Although sometimes,you may find it hard for individualistic-personality people to open up.Maybe they are a little selfish.In fact,according to a moral term called the utilitarianism,men are selfish.Or at least men ought to be selfish.So really,maybe there is no such thing as being selfish at all.Is doing a good deed selfless?No,it isn't.The reason why people do good deeds is so that they may feel good about themselves,and thus,it is selfishness.

Always do what you want as long as you have the right to do so.Others don't like it?Then maybe they're the individuals who can't click well with you.Why bother trying so hard to change for someone who dislikes you,it's irrational.Also don't bother trying to change them,maybe it is wise to do so if you care for that person,otherwise,don't.You hate someone?You get out of there.Nice and simple.You love that person?You stay,no matter how bad things go.Instead of being upset of an individuals flaws,feel happy that you get to love it either ways and never making that person feel bad.

Nobody is perfect
But others being imperfect
does not mean you can easily be 'them'
Because everyone has their own speciality,I guess?
That's why,it's not easy,to be,me

Oh,and Happy 200th day of the year

Yeah,19th of July is the 200th day

Assuming it's not a leap year
Till next time.

Moving On,Letting Go

Everyone has an opinion on how long it takes to recover from a breakup or moving on from one's baggage or even a desvastating past.Some say it's half the length of the relationship.Some say it's a week for every month you were together.While for others,it's exactly 10,000 drinks and maybe shoving every ounce of anger in one's body to the other one's face.For jerks,maybe all they'd need to do is have another one night stand.But hey,whatever gets you through the night right?Somebody once said,"the moment you start to recover is the moment you meet someone that puts you back on track,you know,get you back in the game".Don't know about you,but agree with it.

According to Barney Stinson,played by Neil Patrick Harris,there are eight steps of the relationship process.

1. Attraction
2. Bargaining
3. Submission
4. Perks
5. The Tipping Point
6. Purgatory
7. Confrontation
8. Fallout
9. Co-Existence(Suggested by Ted)

However,moving on is all about the 9th step,Co-existence.Moving on is not about forgetting.It's definitely not about supressing your feelings.It's about closure to a story in your life.It doesn't have to have a happy ending because it isn't the end yet,it's just an end of a chapter.Instead of living in denial,people start to move on the moment the accept the fact and face the truth.Otherwise things will always be hanging,always be unfinished.And we all know the things we honestly regret are always the ones we didn't do,not the ones we did.A lengthen,sincere and honest talk is highly recommended for the moving on process.Thus,the title,Co-existence.It means the person will be neutral towards you and you didn't kill him off in your life.Only then,you have gotten through the hump of a mountain.And no doubt after that,you may pat yourself in the back as you've gotten stronger.Maybe I am a little hypocritical as I don't even utilise my own knowledge of advices.Maybe I am doing something wrong. But all I know is if I don't do it I'd regret for the rest of my life and I'll lose my identity.

Sigh moving on is such a pain in the ass

We can't bare to let go,because we know once we did

It will be gone forever

But maybe it's fate,it's our destiny

Remember this

Good things fall apart

To make way for better things

Till next time

Disappointment

Everyone has definitely experience this several times throughout his or her life.Disappointment is a factor of crumbling relationship,sometimes. Actually,whose fault is it really?The one who disappoints or the one who is disappointed?It'd be way to simplistic to think that the disappointed one is the victim.However,it seems that both have their rights and wrongs.Sometimes,we get awfully disappointed because of a person's behaviour that we'd never expected them to do due to our unreasonable expectations.In this case,isn't the one who disappoints' fault.But,sometimes we have high expectations of somebody,because of the way that somebody portrays himself or herself.So,isn't it also logic to say that,because they want to 'give a good impression',they ended up with more disappointments?

But,what if you've known this person your e-n-t-i-r-e life,and suddenly got disappointed?And you've finally realised,the person somebody you'd connect with,somebody who isn't who he(common term,instead of using 'he or she' all the time) says he is and somebody who has never looked at you for you.Somebody who claims that he loves us all very much when he don't even have faith in us or even trust us.And to make things worst, everytime he doesn't listens,he regrets.I am so sick of listening to his bullshit and sorrys about his mistake when he never even tried to consider our advices.That's because he is so prideful or his status,and nobody below that status will he ever listens to.What are you if you sacrifice your loved ones to maintain your pride. He says we're important,but it seems like we're just disposable.I'm just extremely disappointed as I idolise this person before,always trying to catch up.So,I guess I should be grateful for the disappointment. Because I've realise I'm so far ahead that now he'll never be able to catch up.I'm honestly glad I didn't take that path.Of course,I'm not about to mention names here,for privacy's sake.You know when you love someone,you love all of them,even the bad parts?Maybe the reason why I'm so upset and can never accept the 'bad parts' is because I don't really love huh?Maybe it's possible to get rid of him.Till next time.

Simple Life,Simple Man

All I ever wanted was a normal apple pie life.You know,family of four,dog,white picket fence.It's funny how the world works,you're given something the exact opposite of what you really want.I'm not saying that you can't actually work towards something else that you really want though.Yeah,and I want a normal life.Normal teres house,grow up with both parents,four grandparents,cousins to play with.School,highschool,maybe getting lectured for using the phone for too long,or the computer.Maybe a girlfriend in between?Vacation during the holidays.Then 3 years of college,graduate.Lived in a paid house when I'm an adult,get married,visit parents during the New years.Have an occasional barbeque on Friday evenings with the whole neighbourhood.Saturday golf session with clients and even fishing,gardening,mowing the lawn?Sunday charity work,church or picnic with the family.I know it seems boring,think of it however you see fit.Truth is,something is boring,only if you do it with boring people.Otherwise,you'd have fun.

Instead of that,I spent half of my 18 years not enjoying food

and the other half bent on revenge

Surrounded by people,who are exactly the opposite of I am

The kind which I don't understand,which I despise

and no,this is not a temper tantrum

My only family is the mirror

I honestly don't know what am I aiming towards anymore

No more apple pie.No more kids.No more white picket fence.

I'm nothing more than an empty shell that has revenge as a friend

Maybe that's the reason why I avoid any sort of relationships

If I don't gain anything,I don't lose anything

But hey,I'm not depressed,it's just a task I have to complete before resuming my dream of a simple life

Because I am a simple kind of man

 

Till next time.

Companionship

Humans,crave for the existance of their own group,doesn't matter if it's group of colleagues,group of friends or even a huge group of family members.They just feel comfortable as long as there are others around.In some cases,most of them are strangers as well.Is the thought of having a companion really so important?For example,I assume you know how people spend their time during the 'big' holidays like Christmas Eve or New Year's Eve.They celebrate it in the open,the public,with more than a thousand other strangers.There's fireworks?It's very lifely?Oh,oh and there's a DJ?Why don't you get your head outta your ass and actually think straight.Is the enormous amount of people more important than your loved ones?Isn't more ideal to spend the holiday with people you want to rather than where you want to?Firework is meaningless,if you're watching it with a bunch of strangers.And outings.Some often invite many people,MANY people.And then,those random ones get left out.Is there some kinda pride with having a big group that I do not know of?

Instead of categorising things like good and bad.Why don't you do what you actually want.Like,if you really don't feel like talking,then don't.Yes,sure it is a good thing to have many contacts,but it is not necessary for anyone to make friends with the whole world.Just because I seldom offer to socialise,doesn't make me an anti-social.Rather than making friends with everybody,choose the ones you wanna be friends with.If not,you might end up hurting both ends,because of your ridiculous expectations that 'he/she is my friend'.Sometimes the feeling isn't mutual,you have to accept that.But,this signifies something very important,it shows that,he or she isn't 'the one' or the 'right one'.Well,what can you do about it?It's meant to be.Don't even suggest to force him or her to have the same feelings as you have.When something's wrong with any types of relationship,especially friendship,if it can't be fixed then it means either of you are different.You may be alone,different than the rest,but somewhere on this earth,there are still many people who are 'different'.Maybe it's them,that you should be friends with.Doesn't mean some are normal,some abnormal.Think of it this way,if you had a big group of abnormals,and 1 normal,wouldn't the abnormals be the normal ones?and the lone normal would be the abnormal one in that aspect.

It's not about being negative or positive
It's God's work
Instead of "I don't have any feelings for anyone"
It's "I haven't found the one I love,yet"
Instead of "I don't have any friends"
It's "I haven't found my best friend,yet"
and instead of "I don't have a family"
It's "I haven't have someone so close that I'd call a family,yet"
I'm gonna admit it,I love being alone
Rather than being not lonely with people I don't prefer
But

Once we're born into this world

Be it 5,10,15,25,40,60 years
We will never be alone,not forever anyway
Till next time.

Lack of Inspiration

Trying to update without an inspiration is difficult.It's like cooking without any ingredients or maybe painting without any painting tools,almost impossible but still possible.So,here I am,'trying' to make full use of my thoughtlessness.Lack of inspiration is better than no inspiration,no?Why am I lacking you ask?I missed out half of a day because i woke up very late.Can barely make any conversation as my throat hurts like a mother firetrucker.Skipped class as well.Basically,I've been very idle the entire day,nothing do to,no activities,no conversations,no problems,no stories.Ugh,don't think it's considered living.Unhealthy and lifeless,what a wonderful combination huh.Planning and creating my own schedule is vital,especially if I'm in situations like these.Better learn to categorise fast.Hopefully I can start working out,that'd be one activity,which is both healthy and lifeful.Hoping to find the time to balance exercise,studies,computer and outings.I'm willing to bet by the end of the day,I'll have plenty of inspirations that some may need to get in line.Thank God(and water) that it doesn't seem like I'm gonna get any fever.Or else,you might not be able to even read this entry as I won't be well and be in bed all day.On the bright side,staying at home all day costs Rm 0.In need of an inspiration,tell me stories or whatever,might get something out of it.Till next time.

Weather

Asia oh Asia.Or maybe it's just Malaysia oh Malaysia?Sigh,is it just me or is it so damn fudging heaty and HOT that the only solution available as of now is to live in the shower,with the bathtub as bed.Something to do with the country being on the Khatulistiwa line,right?I mean honestly,who'd rather live in a country which is super hot all the time than in a country which is super cold all the time?When it gets extremely cold,all you have to do is put on some extra clothing,thick ones at that.Still cold?Put on more!However,if it's freaking hot,yeah sure,you can reduce the amount of clothing you wear but there's a certain limit.In public it's till the underwear,when you're alone it's till you're naked.What if it gets hotter?Can you peel off your skin as well?Obviously not.Well,if your answer was the air-cond,in the cold weather we can always light a fire at the fireplace.By the way,air-cond actually makes the globe hotter everyday.It has something to do with the ozon layer getting thinner,don't know,not my expertise and plan to be ignorant about it.Oh have you notice the haze?Don't know about others but,as soon as I leave the room,I'm able to smell it.

Thanks to the weather,and a little contribution from the wrong consumption of food,I have a throat infection now,that itches and get worst whenever I inhale oxygen which has a portion of haze's gas in it,along with an ulser on my lip.Sigh,now I'm force to garggle salt water like every half an hour or so.Coughing as well,whenever my  throat gets to itchy.Not to mention,along with those I've stated,I'm also having flu.Fever symptoms,yeah,I know.Well,screw you fever,you don't know who you're messing with.Hmm,now that I think about it,my throat started to hurt after I've vomitted on Saturday.Guess vomits really do contain acidic properties.Well,no use complaining about the country's weather when I can't do anything about it huh?Get used to it you say?Hell no.I can leave the country as soon as possible,that's the only thing I can do.Unfortunately,'as soon as possible' in my dictionary means 8years or more.Thinking about how long I have to wait gives me a headache,except,I'm already having one.We really need the rain,especially on a sunny day.

 

Hopefully this calm and relaxing song helps you as it helps me

Something about the rain

Gotta love old time music

Till next time.

Communication

Just like the backbone of a body,the root of a tree and the beams of a wooden house.Communication is the foundation to every types of relationship.It is the key,the stairway to heaven for all relationships.And by communicating,it is not only limited to talking.That's why people who are handicapped are still able to have friends and even a lover.People always ask why to their problems instead of the one question they should ask,how.Isn't it better to focus on how to fix the problem rather than questioning why did it happen and never finding a solution at all?After you've fixed the problem then proceed to your 'whys'.Probably take 5 seconds for the opposition to tell you.Otherwise,good luck in trying to save the relationship's gap when it get bigger and larger by the second.

Everybody knows what happens when the main part of a structure malfunctions.It crumbles,the entire body structure that is.Exactly like how relationships cannot survive without communication.And no,it isn't that simple.Like the thought of "Oh,then we should talk more",just to save the relationship.If you ever had that thought,deep down you already know that the relationship wouldn't work out.I mean,if you dislike someone,but lie to yourself just so that you won't be hated by others,why not just save the trouble and tell that person that the relationship isn't working?Communication,like many other things,is a want."I want to talk to him","I want to talk to her",stuff like that.Not,"hmm,I should talk to that person".There is no 'should' in life.You don't say "I should go to the toilet" when you're having a stomache right?

Anyway,sometimes it's even more complicated.Due to circumstances,people might not be able to communicate due to a difference in timing.People get upset because of that,may even complain.Well,don't.How do you think the other person feels?Yeah,that's right,exactly like you.We may go on and on complaining forever but nothing will ever be solved.Here's what you can do,spend every minute,every second possible to communicate instead of using it for whining.Don't ever feel bad or awful because of this.The chain gets longer and lasts forever.Like he feels bad because she feels bad when he feels bad about seeing her feel bad etc etc.Get what I mean?Put aside the part where we 'feel bad'.Find other alternatives,I don't know what,I don't know how.Somewhere inside that head of yours,you know how.Thus,this is what I'm doing.Communicating.Because this is the only alternative I have left,updating frequently so that you may know what's going on and because I know you'll read my blog.Toodles.
Till next time.

Listening

People.Most have a capacity,a limit inside of them for emotional storage.A container for anger,fear,anxiety and sadness.It fills up,until it’s full.Then,it overleaks.That’s when they express themselves.Psychology proven that,through expressing dilemmas or problems to others,one may feel better.Well,logically speaking,how does telling a story about your problems to somebody else helps you feel better?For one,the problem isn’t settled,at all.It isn’t going away,not after telling it to somebody.I’d understand if one is trying to seek advice from the one who is listening.But if you already know the solution and all other alternatives,is it still necessary to share with others?Hmm,maybe not huh.

Other the other end,the listener.Sometimes it’s hard for you.You have to be the strong one,or at least act like the strong one because somebody is in need of your help.You have to clean up messes which aren’t relevant to you.For years,I played the ‘carefree idoit’ role.So that I could avoid complicated situations like these.Stuff I don't understand how others can't see the solution to it.Sometimes,you’d end up being a listener one way or another.I really did dislike it.Because I never did share my stories.So isn’t it the rule of nature that if you take,you also have to give?Then likewise if it’s the other way around.I didn’t take,so therefore I don't give.Then,I decide to test my own emotional capacity.Started talking about serious issues rather than random and stupid stuff.But the problem isn’t being a listener or the talker.It’s about who that person is.Maybe it’s not true that one ‘feels relieved’ after expressing all their emotions and feelings out.Maybe they’ve confused it with ‘feels happy’ because they know somebody is willing to hear and bare their problems.I seldom give credit to God but here goes.We really have to thank Him.I know he didn’t gave a direct explanation or solution to our problems,because life is not a game.It isn’t that simple.But,instead,he led us to people we care who cares about us as well.If he didn’t,we’d be in the darkness,in despair.However,the darkness isn’t so bad.It teaches us how bad things can be,and when we enter the light,we know we should treasure it.

Lastly,to all listener out there
You are called a listener for a reason
Don't direct,don't solve,do give choices and within him,ideas dissolve

Bet you know the saying
“Catch a fish for a man,he gets to eat for a meal”
“Teach the man to fish,he gets to eat for a lifetime”

Till next time.

Truth vs Lie

Lie comforts,lengthen the time to tell the truth,then hurts for a live-long term
Truth hurts,shorten the time for a lie,but its for a greater good

But the weird thing is,the meaning and effect it gives to every individual and at every different moment changes depending on the situation or the important-ness of the individual.No doubt,everyone has done either of those things be it to the people they hate or love.And it’s wrong to say or even assume that truth is better than lie or truth is good,lies are evil.Actually,it is neither good nor bad.Neither right nor wrong either.Take for example,the one you love,lets call him or her ‘Unknown’,is about to die in an hour.Do you tell Unknown the truth,providing temporary happiness but emotionally damages him because of Unknown’s grief knowing that it cannot be there for you as it is about to die.Or,do you lie to it,leaving no expectation,no reason,no explanation,without ever knowing the truth so that so that he wouldn't feel bad for leaving anything or anyone behind and may rest in peace.Though,the only one that has to suffer is you yourself.Is one really better than the other?Nobody can really clarify the better of these choices,really.Both are neither selfish nor selfless.It is selfish and selfless also,actually.

Lies.It is such a miserable word.Everybody hates it,despises it,sometimes even curses and criticises it.No,it was never something negative or even,bad.Lies are necessary for the balance between the happiness and grief or an individual.Lies result may result in temporary happiness,but a live-long grief.For example,if one has a friend who is considered an obese.Is it better to lie?And say that his or her size is fine,they are who the are.Which results in him,having a heart attack or high blood cholesthrol ,basically health problems in the future.Or,don't lie,and encourage him or her that it is not wise to keep that lifestyle and to make a change.No it’s not being mean to judge a person that you care.You just care for his or her health and isn’t that a good thing?In situation like these,yes,lies may seem like villain.But sometimes,when one doesn’t want to worry anyone,he lies.He lies forever because that is all he needs to bare and he bare it himself without anyone having to feel the pain.And how is that bad?Although,you may indicate both selfishness and selflessness in that.

• Lies and truth in religious teaching
• Lies and truth that harm others,helps nobody and harms nobody,helps someone 
• Lies and truth that harm others,help someone and harms nobody,except someone 
• Lies told to "please others with facts which are not true" 
• Truths told to “remind someone with good facts which are true” 
• Lies and truth that harm no one,save someone's life and harms someone,ruining someone’s life 
• Lies and truth that harm no one,save someone's "purity" and harms someones,revealing someone’s defilement 
• Lies and truth that harm no one,help someone and harms someone,help no one

Truths.Everybody loves you,truth.They adore you,sometimes even begging for you from others.But everytime the truth ain’t pretty,they betray you and say the truth is hurtful.Often happens,you might be surprise.Everyone says,”I prefer being told the truth,rather than being lied to”.Don’t take words so lighty.The truth is a lethal weapon capable enough to kill anyone.Some people,because of the truth,that their wife or girlfriend doesn’t love them anymore,kill themselves .And they label lies as the ‘villain’.Sometimes,truth even ruin sacred bonds,like friendship or family issues.So don't live your live deciding whats good and whats not,sometimes it is important to know when to lie.Always remember,we individuals,lie for the ones we love,lie to the ones we love,be truthful to the ones we love and be truthful for the ones we love.Either way,you’ll still be in dilemma of people trusting you or not.People don't trust you because of your lies,some don't trust you because of the truth(eg. You kill someone before).Just remember,to only one in the entire world that we should never lie to,is ourselves.

So,which would you pick: The Gallant Lie or The Ugly Truth?
If you’d pick lie,here’s a piece of advice
Never lie to someone who trusts you,never trust someone who lies to you
The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves
We live in denial of what we do, even what we think
We do this because we're afraid
We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it
We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy

I’d personally pick the truth
Because no best dressed lie can ever match the naked truth
And
The truth
Shall set you free
Till next time.

Mistakes

You know you’ll be having a bad day when you have problems sleeping in the night due to the fact that you woke up in the noon the day before and decided not to sleep at all until the gym opens at 8:00am in the morning and maybe workout a little bit and finally head home for a nap.Unfortunately,I fell asleep by 5:30am and result in waking up at 1:50pm in the afternoon.Had breakfast/lunch or,brunch and decided to go gym at 3:00pm just to get disappointed by the large crowd of people using the gym’s equipments.Halfway through,felt nauseated and cold on the surface on my skin.I stopped and sat on the bench while taking a deep breathe and then it happened.I couldn’t control my urge to vomit any longer and rushed to the toilet and expelled everything that I ate for my brunch.Oh,I also had stomache the same time I was vomitting.What a wonderful day huh.Thank God it didn’t go any further than that.So,basically I’ve made 3 mistakes that I regretted.

   1. Waking up late on the 8th of July
   2. Falling asleep at 5:00am
   3. Deciding to go gym in the afternoon

Ironically enough,majority of the population view mistakes as something negative and should be prevented at all costs.Is this true?Most people don’t conclude good things that happened to them as ‘mistakes’,however,bad things are listed as ‘mistakes’.Truth is,mistake is something that happened which you never would’ve expected to happen.I guess it works kinda like how accidents or incidents work.You never intended for it to happen,but it did.Kinda when you meet your future best friend for the first time,or even meeting the love of your life for the first time.I doubt any of those were mistake-free right?Nobody ever thought it was a mistake because it resulted in something good.

Well,I personally won't regret and be sorry for my mistakes if it actually lead me to somebody important. It’s best to be a firm believer,don't get wavered over a small mistake.Sometimes it’s right to do the wrong thing,and likewise for the right thing.Don’t ignore your mistakes as well,because good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment,and bad judgement comes from zero experience.So,doesn’t matter how perfect someone is,they still have one or two mistakes in their lives.Thus,always cling to your imperfections and flaws,they are what make you unique.If others can't accept you because of that,that’s their problem,their lost.Live your live without avoiding mistakes and without regret,don't be someone they’ll forget.So far,I’ve made tons of mistakes I wished I hadn’t made but I’ve also made mistakes that are worthwhile and that’s what keeps me from regretting the mistakes I did.Especially after I met everyone,and you.The day I regret is the day I stop dreaming of living in America.

Lily said

OK, yes it's a mistake. 

I know it's a mistake,but there are certain things in life where you 

know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake 

because the only way to really know it's a mistake is to make the 

mistake and look back and say 'yep, that was a mistake.'

So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake,because 

then you'd go your whole life not knowing if something is a mistake or not. 

And dammit, I've made no mistakes! 

I've done all of this; my life, my relationship, my career, mistake-free. 

Does any of this make sense to you?

Therefore,no doubt

Sometimes mistakes can be the best memories

You only live once,so do everything twice

Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" and get rid of the confusion within yourself

Whatever was - is in the past.Whatever is?That’s what's important

Don't live in the past,don't live in the future either

The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized

Everyday is a gift,that's why it's called the present.

You have to take the good with the bad,smile with the sad, 

love what you got, and remember what you had. 

Always forgive, but never forget, 

learn from your mistakes, but never regret

Till next time.

Supernatural

Ever witness something out of the ordinary,say,somebody who literally came back from the dead?You know, stuffs which don't happen everyday.Some call it a miracle.Others call it extraterrestrial,extraordinary or for lack of a better word,supernatural.The addititional ‘extra’ and ‘super’ does not mean further emphasise the meaning of the original word however.Take for example, supernatural means unnatural or not natural. Meanwhile,super smart means one is very smart and definitely not not smart or stupid.Same goes for ‘extra’. Extra cucumbers doesn’t mean no cucumbers.Needless to say, supernatural in terms of scientifically, logically, realistically,statistically,spiritually,physically, mentally, weirdly or even sexually?Means something related to the topic mentioned is not normal.

Hmm,supernatural.I don't think it’s wrong to assume that when one hears that word,it automatically transfers their mind to the existance of spirits,souls or even,ghosts.I personally don't get why some would believe in their existance when they haven’t seen one before.Is that what you call blind faith?I mean,isn’t it unlogical for someone to believe in something they can't see or even touch?More importantly,is it something to be afraid of?I’m not trying to be an expert of anything,but don't you think it’s irrational for a ghost to appear right in front of you without any reason other than it being your ancestor or it’s trying to take revenge.Either way, doesn’t it seem kind of,unreasonable to be afraid as whether it might try to kill you or not?Come on,it’s a ghost,the death rate is either 100 percent or 0 percent.No point paying any special attention to it.Robbers however,can deal physical damage to you,now that,you should be afraid of.Anyway,it’s every individual’s reflex to be afraid of ghosts,but ever wonder that these ‘ghosts’ are actually dead human’s soul?Most probably somebody related to you,like an ancestor maybe?So,isn’t it very impolite to express fear and disgust to it?An ancestor who has travel to and fro from the realm of the dead just to ‘visit’ his or her or it’s descendant but ends up being treated like a freak or worst,a monster.How would you feel if the situation’s reversed?Sucks huh?I may not pray,I may not believe,but I still am and always will be reasonable.Depending on the problem,sometimes ‘doing’ it is better than to ‘believe’ it.

Another supernatural that I know of is none other than the horror american Tv series starring Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester and Jared Padalecki as Sam Winchester.These two brothers hunt everything that is literally categorised as ‘supernatural’ such as vengeful spirits,vampires,wendigos, shapeshifters, nightshifters, skinwalkers,demons and even,angels.Thank God they didn’t include God in their list huh.I highly recommend that this Tv series to be added into anyone’s list of favourite shows.Action,comedy,horror,sci-fi all packed into one. 

The brothers.

Opening title card for Supernatural Season 6.

And last but not least

The 1967 Chevy Impala

The car used by the brothers

For six freaking seasons

Also my dream car actually.

List of songs that is a-must to be listened to while driving this vehicle

1. Carry On My Wayward Son-Kansas
2. Highway to Hell-AC/DC
3. Back in Black-AC/DC
4. You Shook Me All Night Long-AC/DC
5. Rock Of Ages-Def Leppard
6. Long,Long Way From Home-Foreigner
7. Wanted Dead or Alive-Bon Jovi

Till next time.

Food

Ah food.Before I proceed,I’ve to warn you that this is the non-asian food section.My blog,my rules,my food. First of,we mankind are separated into two categories.Are you the type that ‘eat to live’ or the one that ‘live to eat’? Nope,I’m not suggesting the type of food that every individual has to consume for one’s daily needs. I’m talking about Food.Yeah,uh-huh,you know what it is.I know everyone of us had either dreamt or fantasised about drowning ourselves in food.Well,I know I did.What can I say?Thats the dream.Like the ‘dream’ Martin Luthor King was talking about. Anyway,to be specific,I meant meat.Any meat will do,you name it.Chicken,duck,lamb,goat,cow.. ostrich?rabbit and I guess we could add in fish?Yup,food!Not the kind that looks and tastes very close to what I’d call shit a.k.a sushi.I know,I know,everybody has their own definition of favourite but sushi?!Only two reasons for one to love sushi.

1. He or she doesn’t have any taste buds
2. He or she previously ate something worse(poop) before tasting the sushi

Sometimes,I seriously wonder why in the world am I born in Malaysia.I don't like the races,the government, the people,the culture and even their food!Maybe God delivered me to the wrong island,who knows?Yes,I don't fancy Malaysian food at all.Especially ‘asam laksa’.Here’s what I think;the money used for the asam laksa,use that plus an addition of few bucks,and I’d get a plate of chicken chop.It’s even filling, even tastier,even has more nutrients and sadly,even expensive as well.But hey,"nothing good is cheap, nothing cheap is good" right? Ever wonder why we,from the South East Asia are often tiny compared to the Western people?It’s because of our food consumption!Alright,I’ll admit the Westerns’ daily consumption are very unhealthy but it still has protein.Unlike our local food,unhealthy and nutrient-free.You know what I hate the most,other than asian noodles?Something called ‘Chee Chong Fun’.Oh God,kill me now.It is by far the worst food ever.Ever.Do a research on the food and you’ll be on my side, trust me.

Well,I’m the kind of person who lives to eat like many out there.But I’m different you see.When I eat,I eat.To be honest,I kind of,threw away my table manners for years now.Yes,I eat like an animal feasting on their prey after ripping them to shreds.But,in my defence,it actually makes perfect sense. Picture,yourself,fine dinning. Yummy,using the spoon,fork and knife with precise yet graceful movement while putting the food in your mouth.Does this honestly,sound satisfying to you or,using nothing but your bare hands and fill your mouth with portions of food exceeding the size of your own mouth. Personally,I think I’d enjoy eating like a caveman.We humans may be the smartest creature,but deep down everyone has something we’d call ‘animal instinct’.What better way to express your animalistic personality than during a meal?

Anyway,I just had something call Beef Ribs during my mother’s birthday dinner.

Speaking of birthdays,doing an entry about it in the future,when I’ve had the inspiration after somebody’s

(grandma,grandpa,aunt,uncle, mom,dad,bro,sis,etc).

By the way,best decision I’ve ever made throughout the year for choices of food. 

Fortunately,I didn’t pay for it.

Hey,no judging.

It costs RM 38 for 1 plate,ouch.

But,still.Worth.Every.Penny.

A picture speaks a thousand words right?

Ps.That piece of meat,has N-O bones.

Till next time.

Emotional Reaction

People tend to compare emotions to irrelevant metaphores such as changing or stopping an emotional reaction like how they change the parts of a car.Saying something and actually doing something are two very different things.You know how people say "I hate him" or "I hate her" and ends up crying when something unfortunate happens to that latter person.Well,can't they just admit the fact and their own feelings instead of lying to themselves?I understand that most people want to change themselves,however,it is not through cheap lines and publicly announcing it.The only one that needs to know of your determination is none other than yourself.The assumption seems to be that if we change one thing the whole problem will go away when it is obvious that the 'one thing' won't be change with just snapping your fingers.Through observation from everyday live situation,I can safely conclude that this approach and attitude to change emotional reaction does more harm than good. Usually,with a sense of regret or guilt for not being true to oneself.The typical emotional reaction is as stated.

Happy : Usually very cheerful and always with a smile
Sad : Most of the time crying,or tearing.Otherwise silent.
Frustrated : Getting angry at anything,anyone,anytime,anywhere
Depressed : Very negative and pessimistic

There are actually many more other types or emotions and typical reactions.Like how most people,usually men,start using their fists and attempt to be violent,to settle their 'problems' whenever they're angry.And then they go on a blab about how we would understand if we're in their situation.Yeah right,don't categorise others as barbarians much like yourself.Just because somebody is rude to you or insults you,doesn't give you the right to take action.It only gives you the right to do the same.Use words against other's words.Otherwise,go get help for anger management or you just simply have very low Emotional Intelligence(EQ).Unfortunately, many people view this as 'manly' or 'strong'.Maybe I'm weird but I view it as stupid and childish.Well,I'd bet we'd all be weird after watching this.

Found this somewhere while browsing through the web
(No,it's not porn)
Sigh,one word

Despicable

To change emotional reactions we would be better served to think of our mind and emotions as a garden.It is a living growing field of emotional energy that we plant seeds in, water, nurture, and bring to life.We want to nurture the fruit that bears emotions of happiness and gratitude and we want to pluck out the weeds of sadness and anger.Every expression we make goes into that emotional field.When you express judgments about emotional reactions you are planting and watering another weed in your mind.It's best to cure the negative emotions rather than preventing it.Sometimes,prevention is not better than cure.

Otherwise,people resort to denial as a way to shut down their emotions and thus,have no reactions to it.Think of it as a spraying weed killer on the whole garden.You'd successfully kill the weeds,but you'll also kill the fruit.Thus,you won't feel much anger or sadness,but you won't feel love,joy or happiness either.Basically,you'd be soulless.But,is this a bad thing?Imagine a situation where you've just lost somebody important.If you were soulless,you wouldn't feel sad.Which ultimately leads to no suffering of lost.And how is suffering ever good? It's always wise to look at things in a third point of view.Everything has two sides of their own stories.Don't look at the the unfortunate one and assume the entire story.Don't think whenever you're frustrated,you're automatically given the rights to be rude to others.

Everybody's got their problems

Everybody says the same thing to you

But,really?

It's just a matter of how you solve them

And knowing how to change the things you've been through

Emotions

"Those in power never want us to feel

Thought can be controlled and manipulated

But emotions is willful and unpredictable"

It's normal to be upset when others tend to be rude when they're emotional

But,it's also normal for wanting to be there for the ones who are important

Whether the situation is up or down,sweet or sour

Till next time.

Purpose of Existance

One day,woman A and man A fell in love.Then they decided to get married after a reasonable amount of time they've been together.That was a big step.However,not the biggest step in life.After they lived together for a significant time,woman A and man A started a family.After nine months of pregnancy,the zygote which evolved into a fetus which finally became an infant,was born.It's time of birth is recorded as proof of existancy.Seems like a happy ending don't it?

Well,not if you think of it in the point of view of the new born individual.For it,it's the beginning of all beginnings. Mother of beginnings."So,now that I'm brought to this world,what do I do?","Why are we here?","What is life all about?" and "What is the meaning of it all?".No doubt,each and everyone out there has thought about it at least once or twice.And no doubt as well,many did not manage to get the answer. However,through time and again,many philosophers had conclude many reason as to for what purpose we were born for.Which one is your definition of the purpose of life?

1. To realise one's potential and ideals
2. To achieve perfection biologically
3. To seek wisdom and knowledge
4. To do good and do the right thing
5. To attain spiritual enlightenment
6. To love,to feel and to enjoy life
7. To have power,to be superior amongst others
8. Life has no meaning

So,are we suppose to be biglogically programmed to repay our debt to our parents and show gratitude? Should we always be kind to others?Must we never treat others bad?Do we have to suffer so that others may enjoy peace?The answer to all of the above is no,no,no and no.My opinion though.Who says we have to repay our debt?This 'law' was passed down to younger generations to prevent them from stepping over the elder ones and avoid disrespect.Is this rational?Is this realistic?Do you think anyone would be satisfied with fake love,fake respect and fake gratitude?Definitely not.We don't repay our debt because we 'have' to,it's because we want to.We sometimes have to be cruel instead of kind,if we truly want happiness for another. Sometimes it's not always about being the good guy,it's about doing the right thing even though you'll hurt another.Never ever suffer for other's happiness because it is not true happiness.If the one you really care for or love really understood your feelings,they'd suffer alongside with you instead.Two is better than one right?It's all about want.No,having so many 'wants' is not selfish.It is sincere,as it comes from the bottom of the heart.

• I want to show gratitude because I appreciate not because it is the law
• I want you to be happy because I don't want you to be sad not because I like it only when you're happy
• I want to study because I want to succeed in life not because my parents threatened me
• I want to donate because I want the handicapped to have a better life not because i pity them
• I want to love because I love who I love not because of appearances nor good qualities

Now do you get what I mean?

I had an answer of my own years ago.To do what I want,when I want,where I want,however I want,with whoever I want.In the end it's God's decision to respect my way of life or not.He created us to live our own lives and search for the meaning in it along the way instead of guiding us directly he nudges us into our destiny,the right path.Thus,it is for Him to know and for us to find out.So,never discriminate him for not answering to your prayers.Life is not easy,however, it is never complicated as well.It's not the best answer nor even a correct answer because the shape,size and version of every individual's way of life is different depending on their decision of how it is.But,it will and always be my way of life.Till next time.

Irony

Nope.The iron in irony or ironic don’t stand for ironing the clothes.It means action or situation which are exactly the opposite of reality or what is really happening at the moment. Ironic statements or verbal irony typically imply a meaning that is exactly the opposite to their literal meaning.

Take for instance this story that happened to my uncle few months back;

I have an aunt,lets call her aunt A alright.She basically has a screw lose in her head but refused to admit it(who would anyway?) and still potrays herself as the most successful among her siblings.Sometimes even bragging about her “achievements” like , hmm… doing the dishes? Or buying groceries? Yeah even 12 year old can do that.Oh and she earns like RM300 plus minus a month.MONTH.She has a son,which she won the custody of having him after filling a divorce with her husband who still pays his share payment for his son’s needs.My cousin,is also abnormal unfortunately,or not?He didn’t sat for UPSR nor PMR and he is 16 years old now.I guess you could categorise him as ‘special’.Well enough with the introductions.Aunt A has a hobby,which drifted towards the side of obsession.It’s watching television. She can even watch the news for hours,all she needs is the TV to be on.Anyway,recently aunt A’s landlord kicked her out for delaying her rental fee for half-a-freaking year.So,my uncle(uncle B) offered to help her.He’d pay for the rent,allowing aunt A to not get kicked out.However, he had a condition,he said the TV must be taken away from her.She freaked out and got extremely mad. She threatened to call the police about a property theft against her own brother who,was willing to pay her rent.Then,she said ,“You shouldn’t treat the television like it’s so important,sigh”.What the hell? The irony in that is super obvious.Aunt A treasured the television because she’s obsessed with tv programs and she advice others to not treat the TV so importantly.Sigh,crazy lady.
 Next,we have situations which are often said to be ironic or situational irony which means If the actions taken have an effect exactly opposite from what was intended.

Take for instance this story that happened to me on Saturday;

In the noon about 12pm I had thought of a title for my next blog entry.It’s hobbies.To be specific, something we enjoy doing.Just when I wanted to start blogging,I was invited for badminton.So,I thought.Hey,maybe if I attend I could get inspired further.Oh by the way,I love badminton.The intensity, the integrity and the pleasure of smashing somebody with the thought of destroying him.Yeah, that’s, true happiness.Anyway,so I had a great time playing the sport.After that,I fully intended to go straight home and blog.But.Then, I was asked to go for a drink.So,I’m like,no harm right?Drank and chat till about 1:30am in the morning.Sent the guys home as usual,then BOOM!What happened?I turn left at a junction without the realisation that another car was speeding from the right.Yes,I’m still alive.However, the day turned out exactly how I want it not to happen.Thus,I’ve lost the mood to blog when I got home and that brings us to this topic,Irony.You can see how excited I was to go for badminton and blog about  ‘stuff that we enjoy’ and the worst thing happens.P.S. sorry to those lifes i've put at risk,the owner of the car whose plate number is WNK 8978 and to the one that i've worried.

Piece of advice before I end this

When the clock strikes 2

Just go to sleep

Because nothing good ever happens after 2am

Go home.Go to bed.Go to sleep.

Till next time.

Sense of Professionalism

Hey there.You must be wondering in what sense of professionalism I'm trying to emphasise on right?Well,I guess you could call it people's jobs or their public life when it's their working hours.Take for instance,a doctor.His profession is basically about helping the sick,wounded or to save lives professional as well as officially.Any idoit from the street can 'try' to do the same act when it's obvious that they don't know jack squat.However,that's not done professionally nor officially now is it?So,I'm assuming you get the gist of it.More examples ;

Fire Fighter : Put out fire,save people from fire and basically anything to do with fire(except during a campfire)

Lawyer : Fighting for rights of a claimant or defendant based on his knowledge on law

Police : Maintain and ensure the safety of people,enforcing the law

Businessman : Promotes his product by convincing others

Teacher : Molding the future leaders of tomorrow(which I find not true)

Okay,now I'm more than certain you get what I meant so I better stop blabbing.I'm talking about professions and their jobs,what they've learned to do and they're paid for to do.But what I do want to know is how most people can be so unprofessional.You know how everyone has a 'bad day'?Well,isn't it obviously that it shouldn't be brought to our public lives?For doctors,it may cause them a patient's live because he or she isn't able to perform properly due to emotional problems.Is this not preventable?A patient died because the doctor has a 'bad day'.Poor patient huh?

Just the other day I had dinner on a street surrounded by many different food stalls.Few of the waiters came to ask whether we(my friends and I) wanted to eat anything.One of the bragged about how his stall's food are cheaper as well as tastier and how other stalls sucked.Well,at first I didnt pay much attention to it and decided to order a dish from the man who was bragging.After he left,the rest of the waiters we gossiping about him and complaining about him,IN FRONT of us(their customers).Yeah,I'm sure you guys are paid to talk about your 'feelings' in front of your customer,well done.

I've always wanted to say this.By the way,I'm quoting a sentence from Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson.
"Know your role and shut your mouth"

I mean,are u kidding me?Why in the world are you expressing your hate to US?We are the customers,we have our rights to choose what we damn well want.Wanna talk about how hard and miserable life is?Even though God has big plans for us,I'm pretty sure He always gives everybody a choice,a decision to make because we are the ones who controls our on destiny not anyone else.And,I noticed how these people immediately retires at the age of 55.I mean,if you'd have an ambition which you undoubtly love to do,why end it at the age of 55 and go back to slacking on the sofa while watching TV for 24hours a day,7 days a week?And you call us younger generations lazy,useless and selfish.Well,look whose talking.

You want respect?EARN IT.It isn't automatically given to you once you get older.Yeah,I'm sure many of you reader(s) have encounter these situations before.Well,not worth going against it,makes you even angrier and pissed off anyways.Think of it this way,don't ever be them in the future because I'm confident that you don't wanna do something that you don't like others to do to you right?Choose your profession wisely.

And know this.

If you're sincere about what you want out of life

Truth is

God gives it to you

You just have to work hard towards that goal

Till next time

(yeah no songs or videos this time)

Humanity Rights

Hey there.I'm guessing those of you who reads this blog are from Malaysia,well, because I'm from Malaysia?Yeah,I'm also assuming you know how messed up and corrupted our Federal Constitution is.Ever heard of the story where the country's main race,Malays who majority of them are Islamic,burnt down several churchs?It all began when they found out that the bible has the word 'allah' written in it.Yup,I'm as surprised as you are."JUST BECAUSE OF THAT?!".There are only two reasonable explanations for this actually.

1.They are retarded
2.They are very retarded

I mean,come on.They didn't even get punished or won't get sued because the government is literally supporting them.No,this is not racism,criticism nor self-thoughtout theories.It's black and white facts.Ever realise how the authorities address Buddhism?It's Buddha is it not?Buddha is the God for the Buddhism's religion.So,I guess the Chinese should all start burning Mosque huh?But.The outcome is that they'd all end up in jail.What a fair and just country we all live in.

One Malaysia?Eat shit.Recently there's been a new program called Bersih,look it up.Government's election parties usually has a very unfair sense in voting.They'd usually start of with a 10,000 votes 'head-start'.The program,Bersih is basically all about going against that 'head-start'.Recently few have been sent to jail because of only,wait-for-it,WEARING the Bersih shirt.Yeah,utterly ridiculous.

Where is our rights as citizen?

Where is our freedom?

Oh there it is,up their asses.

Looks like our government was,is and never will be trustable till the end of time.

However,I never said anything about giving up hope.

Somebody once said,

You don't have to believe in your government to be a good citizen.

You just have to believe in your country.

(Unless you're not American though,ahhaha)

So,all hail the United States of America!

U-S-A!

U-S-A!

Till next time.