Gifts

To be specific,occasional gifts like during birthdays,farewells or even a congratulatory gifts.To men(typical),gifts are all about how much it costs.The more expensive and the better the quality,the more they like it or appreciate it.Hey,I said typical,you know,men who are jocks.The drink-beer-and-watches-sport-and-think-women-are-only-for-sex kind.To women(typical),gifts are all about effort and feelings instilled in the said gift.It's all about the 'awww' feeling.While others,anything cheaper than a diamond ring gets angrily thrown into the trash can.What is the perfect gift then?A house?A car?A rose?Perfect is a word that changes it's shape depending on every individual's perspective.Some say the perfect/real men are the ones who cry.Hate to burst your bubble but,there is no such thing as perfect.It's called 'my-kind-of-perfect-man'.Everyone has different opinions,no matter how twisted.But it doesn't mean one is false compare to another just because majority don't support said opinion.Back to where we were,in my opinion,my perfect kind of gift is a combination of what the receiver likes,what I like,and what I hope the receiver likes.If it's a gift that only the receiver likes eventhough you hated it,it's a bit one-sided don't you think so?Likewise for the other way around.

Speaking about gifts,I worked on one.At first it was a simple card,but my mind has a tendency to make things complicated.So the 'things-to-do' increased by at least two-fold.As I spend hours doing it,I'm gonna admit,it is freaking tiring seating for so long but that didn't bother me.God knows why.Thank God I decided not to do a last-minute-work as it will definitely be a failure.Then I finally finished,and prayed that the next day I will be able to sail smoothly.Wishing God answered my prayers,of course.How wrong I was!Things started to go south,I got a little worried.Because the receiver seemed reluctant to accept my gift.Oh here's a good quote,"Worrying is a sin because it shows the absence of faith in God".So I tried to clear my mind as I went out to the stationary shop.I asked Him to give me a sign,I will listen to it.I pleaded Him to let me be able to give my gift in time.Then as a walked pass this ordinary guy,he started playing his guitar.I smiled,and thought maybe that was the sign?As I reached home,the receiver seems to have accept the gift.God works in mysterious ways many people say,indeed he does.He didn't give me what I asked for,he gave me what I wanted.All it took was for me to be cornered and desperate and finally open my eyes and see as well as listen through my ears.I see many people being blinded by emotions.Sometimes even telling them they're blinded by emotions.Maybe I should've told myself all along.I will now give a 120% in my attempt to forgive.This is an oath.As I'm typing this,the day isn't over.But the 'receiver' will be reading this after 12am.Anyway...

Happy Birthday

Bernice Chee Wai Yee

it's been 6 or 7 months 

knowing each other

but I'm looking forward to 10 years later

you have a lot of promises to be done then

Amen.